Surge of anger and frustration

Today I was at Eggcite! at MJC's Science Fiesta. This was the Eggcite! team that I was with today. Overall our class did quite well and our darling little egg did not crack. Never thought it would be successful but oh well we're a mugger class aren't we? :)

Can't really say it was enjoyable today but somehow when I was like boiling mad today Dora kinda gave me a pat on the shoulder and I guess it comforted me quite a bit then somehow. I guess its cause I never expected him to be nice. But nonetheless it was a matter of seconds and he was back to his usual self. Teh was trying to comfort me as well but I guess we were all on the same boat so we were basically feeling the same kinda fucked up feeling. :/

Not that I'm already okay now, I ranted to Kaiting when I reached home because I was still like darn mad but just not that bad. I've like decided to forget this incident and let it all pass.

I really can't stand it. Its not like I don't wanna give them a chance, its not that I wanna exclude myself and its not that I'm doing all of this on purpose. I'm gonna tolerate all these shit and let everything rewind and take place again. If this shit happens again, I swear I'm not gonna be nice anymore.

Somehow I'm so glad for having sisterhood to back me up when shit like this happens.

Urgh really hate this shit.

Satisfactory lifestyle

Hahahaha omg I still can't believe Dora really thought that I believed he likes me. To think he's from a mixed school and to trust him to only think that it was a joke.

Fuck and he try to tell me he doesn't like me (i can totally imagine his damn awkward face already i tell you) and i'm laughing away just looking at the message and facepalming. -,-

REALLY BTH.

Anyway I think our sisterhood damn awesome now cause we always like joke around and slack and make time in lectures and tutorials pass so quickly. Sadly, breaks also pass as quickly lor damn sad only :'( Gossiping sessions are like so RAHRAH cause we all have common sentiments. ^^ (as in the girls LOL)

I'm glad I've a bunch of jokers to spend most of my time in jc with. Oh well, satisfaction!

REALLY HAPPY THAT EVERYTHING SEEMS TO BE WORKING OUT BETWEEN US NAO Q. :) I hope this situation's gonna last long. ^^ Nothing makes me happier than this.

XOXO! (L)

CYST! :(

I damn sad only I tell you. :(

Finally seen the doctor and I've one week PE MC that'll end this week. Hopefully the cyst will die out by then. ^^ Heh heh. Great thing is that I can skip all the physical trainings BUT I'm gonna get fat!

Well there're always two sides to a coin. :(

There were like many mad people begging me to infect them with my cyst so that they don't have to run too, hahaha damn funny. ^^

Can't wait for Homecoming and go back to Xinmin already! I knew I was going to miss that school. :((

Some decisions are so hard to make, because no matter what you choose you can't have a happy ending.

Settling down.

Finally settled down in Meridian after thinking for ages that I would never get used to the place and I'll just be a loner for the rest of my life. I'm glad to have my Sisterhood friends now because even if we aren't those close to the max friends, I can say they make me laugh and forget things that I don't want to remember anyway.

I've thought about things now, and all I can say is that I'm satisfied with my life now and I'm glad my best friend's still in the same school as me.

I guess I've to be contented with what I have, or I'll never be happy.

Peace out. :)

From friends to foes.

I don't know what happened along the way, but you're just pissing me off bit by bit and I'm really really annoyed by you now. I mean, I've never thought of you this way, or maybe it didn't last long. But now, its really pissing me off and it doesn't go away like it usually does.

I'm not gonna criticize much since I'm not really perfect, but I hope you'd be a little less self-centered and know that there're many more people living in this world, and you can't always have things your way. Sometimes, give in a little, and maybe, don't be who you criticize others to be. I just hope you'll be true to yourself and be who you really are, because that mask you're putting on to make everybody think you're awesome is fading off as time goes by.

2011.

I've so much to say but I think I'm giving up on blogging. I won't delete this blog, but I'll just give it up. There's no point saying so much, knowing that its not gonna change anything.

Happy new year.

Ps/ Yeah I'll try to be less of an annoying burden.

Vietnam - Hanoi.

1st day at Hanoi and I already want to go back to Singapore. Nobody here even smiles back at you, and nobody understands what the shit you're saying. Walking the whole day through dangerous streets with no traffic lights and crossing roads like betting your life to get to the other side is not cool at all. Pushy people that scam our money are even more horrible. ): Long sleeves and jeans in the hot and humid weather practically kills. I feel damn whiney but its true. I'm not even whining about how dirty this whole place is and how it stinks already with all the noise.

I just suddenly thought of my life back in Singapore. Though its not good either, but at least I've friends to fall back on. Now, I can't even fall back on anybody. I can't help remembering how my taiwan trip was different. The trip was awesome, but I never enjoyed it, only looking forward to every night on the laptop with somebody that has now left.

I feel like killing myself.
I feel like crying.
But I can't, I've to hold back my tears now so that I'll appear stronger and make myself even more miserable inside.

I've to be someone I used to be. Cheerful and bubbly.
But now I've to fake it instead of express it.



Tell me,
where's the joy?
The rainbow after the rain? The thunderstorm?

:'( :'( :'(

Airport.

At the ariport now.
Though I'm not exactly leaving everything behind and not coming back ever again, it just feels like it. Half of me wants to start a new life, while the other half really wants to come back. Mixed feelings, I don't know what to say.

On a lighter note, can't wait for shopping and to go for training when I come back cause I get to see Charlotte to get my polaroid! :D Actually more excited about the polaroid. :P
Oh, and our subway date! c: Darn, I suddenly miss Charlotte alot. ): I think she's the only one that alwaya make me feel like I'm at home and safe because she'll be protecting me from everything else so I won't get hurt.

Even if I do, she'll be there for me no matter what. (L)
And I really mean no matter what.
Hi baby, I love you. :D HEH HEH.
Better be touched if you ever see this and stop flrting with duck!!

I jealous. :'(

Now that its over.

I don't know what to say, but I'm glad we can still be best friends.

Please be happy with your life, you know that you can make it worthwhile. ;)

Grumpywhiney. ):

Prom's over, picnic's over, jobless.

Pictures @ facebook.

I feel so grumpy all the time, its like I'm crying everyday.

It feels like I need to get out and away.