memories.

I didn't know the route back to my home from Hougang Mall had so many of our memories. The same route I walked, he ran. I walked it again and I can imagine everything going through my head. I went to Punggol Park, and I can see the first time we met up in the morning. I can see the sun shining so ever brightly, his friends, the soccer ball, their actions, him next to me, how I felt, how I looked like, everything. Everything went through my mind, I can even see the emptiness of the seat now.
I walked further down to the water area. I look at our seat and also where we sat along the waters. I can see myself sitting and the very edge and wriggling my toes to see if I can touch the surface of the water. But he held my hand and tried to pull me back, because he was so afraid I'd fall, so afraid that I'll just be gone like that, so afraid to lose me. We talked about the water bubbling and what scary things lived underneath. We talked, we laughed, in the day, in the night, with the sun, with the wind, with the heat, with the breeze. All of it, we've been there so many times, we talked about so many things and I believe it holds strong memories. I think I even cried there once. Then, he loved me fiercely. I loved him back too.

I walked the entire route today, from Hougang Mall to Punggol Park and home, throughout it all I teared numerous times. I didn't know it would impact me so greatly, I just thought I should walk home in the great weather since I was fat and sad. (It rhymes! o: ) I would have took the bus if I knew. I thought about so many things. I cried, sniffed, but nobody saw. :) That's the best part about walking alone. I think the flesh between my toes are raw now, I shouldn't have walked in slippers. :/
Its 12.25am now, to me this timing holds a special meaning.
Happy supposedly sixth month, I guess I'll still miss you all the same. :)