Vietnam - Hanoi.

1st day at Hanoi and I already want to go back to Singapore. Nobody here even smiles back at you, and nobody understands what the shit you're saying. Walking the whole day through dangerous streets with no traffic lights and crossing roads like betting your life to get to the other side is not cool at all. Pushy people that scam our money are even more horrible. ): Long sleeves and jeans in the hot and humid weather practically kills. I feel damn whiney but its true. I'm not even whining about how dirty this whole place is and how it stinks already with all the noise.

I just suddenly thought of my life back in Singapore. Though its not good either, but at least I've friends to fall back on. Now, I can't even fall back on anybody. I can't help remembering how my taiwan trip was different. The trip was awesome, but I never enjoyed it, only looking forward to every night on the laptop with somebody that has now left.

I feel like killing myself.
I feel like crying.
But I can't, I've to hold back my tears now so that I'll appear stronger and make myself even more miserable inside.

I've to be someone I used to be. Cheerful and bubbly.
But now I've to fake it instead of express it.



Tell me,
where's the joy?
The rainbow after the rain? The thunderstorm?

:'( :'( :'(

Airport.

At the ariport now.
Though I'm not exactly leaving everything behind and not coming back ever again, it just feels like it. Half of me wants to start a new life, while the other half really wants to come back. Mixed feelings, I don't know what to say.

On a lighter note, can't wait for shopping and to go for training when I come back cause I get to see Charlotte to get my polaroid! :D Actually more excited about the polaroid. :P
Oh, and our subway date! c: Darn, I suddenly miss Charlotte alot. ): I think she's the only one that alwaya make me feel like I'm at home and safe because she'll be protecting me from everything else so I won't get hurt.

Even if I do, she'll be there for me no matter what. (L)
And I really mean no matter what.
Hi baby, I love you. :D HEH HEH.
Better be touched if you ever see this and stop flrting with duck!!

I jealous. :'(

Now that its over.

I don't know what to say, but I'm glad we can still be best friends.

Please be happy with your life, you know that you can make it worthwhile. ;)

Grumpywhiney. ):

Prom's over, picnic's over, jobless.

Pictures @ facebook.

I feel so grumpy all the time, its like I'm crying everyday.

It feels like I need to get out and away.