Tears roll down my face,

I can't explain why I always get this fucked up feeling. I think I'm so pessimistic about math that I screwed up. Now that I'm starting to be pessimistic about myself, I don't know what'll happen! :o Shitballxsz123.

Maybe I'm too desperate to be wanted, to be loved, and to be sweet-talked to. Darn. I watch too many shows. I can't stand losing people close to me and see how they fade away. I've lost a handful on this little short journey of life and I don't wanna lose another for the rest of this journey. :(

Why can't people see how I want to hold on to our relationships?? Ive tried, and I know I won't be the best. But give a chance? Live, and let live.

I think I don't know what I'm saying. I just feel thrown away. I don't know how else can I try anymore. I don't know how to keep people close to me. I think I'm too sensitive, paranoid, and jealous.




DARN.

Pretending love.

I seriously need to go and keel myself. Like right now.
It feels like nothing matters now.
Everything's just screwed up.





Maybe something like life exchange should occur.

Raindrops on my window.

I don't believe in wishing, and I don't believe that there's someone out there protecting us all. Because I still cry every night and its like a nightmare every single day.

Is it because I'm not pretty enough?
Is it because I'm not kind enough?
Is it because I can't do things well enough?
Is it because I'm too sensitive?
Is it because I'm so sick of things that keep repeating itself but nothing gets solved?

I hope life is drawn in pencil, because I feel like erasing myself off every page that consists of me right now. Then everything would be okay.

Right? :(

Its no wonder why I love Pooh right? ;)
I told you promises are meant to be kept! :o

Sushi ftw! <:

Its amazing how I'm still not panicking and making every minute precious. And I realised that all boys look the same when they play PS2. :o I was proved correct today.

Nonetheless, I LOVE SUSHI! :D

I think I'll never ever get tired of eating it.

Awesome and wholesome.

Fragile.

If life is so fragile, why am I spending it studying? :(

I just want to be happy, I don't need lots of money. D: All I need is probably just a warm home with a family, though having lots of money might somehow make my life easier.

I think the insecurity of losing someone close chills me to the bones. I don't want to experience something like that. And I hope I won't have to.

Nothing can save me now. :(

I don't know what's wrong with me. Getting a lil' moodswings recently. Sometimes just the littlest thing pisses me off. :( I think its the PMS working up abit now.

As the O's draw nearer, I'm getting more slack than ever, I don't know why. I get this funny feeling in my stomach which I know is a sign of panic. But fuck, my procrastination is too strong.

I know its my own results. I know I'm screwing myself now. Need to buck up!! :(

Loss.

When you gain something, you'll lose something.

And vice-versa.

I don't know what I did wrong, but the friendships that I need the most always fail me when I've already tried to make them better.

I can never make things better. :(

Hopefully I'll always have someone to lean on to.

Because the one I've always depended on when I'm at my lowest has already left me, whether one wants to admit it or not.

I can feel it deep down, and I know you can too.

Friendships. D:

After tuition today, YongGuan enlightened me about all the friendships I thought I'll never have again. I don't know how to feel now. I think about every single person close to me, all those I've been friends with, all my teammates and all my close friends.

And you know what I wanna do right now?

Cry.

Cry really badly.

I really feel like shit.

I miss all my friends. I miss all my teammates, all my close friends, my best friend, my listening ears and really, just all my friends. :(

I just feel like breaking down right now. D:

I miss all my friends. I never wanna lose any of them. :'(

But I know I will.

HOTHOTHOT.

I kinda miss my (ex?) best friend, though I doubt she'll see this. :o

Sorry hollowhead this one abit can see your pimplexsz. I know you sure will scold me one teeheeho. :) Don't worry Mimo won't see this k!

I miss many of my friends actually. :(

I love the F1 twirly whirly straw D bought, am happily using it and drinking lots of water! :D

YAY.

Glad he's been studying the whole day, very prouddd. :)

(L)

The weather's been hothothot.

So I'm gonna go bathe in some cold water or smth.

Heeheexsz.

And I can't wait to go to school on Monday.

And O's are shockingly near.

I need to start mugging soon. ): Quite proud of myself for finishing a set of Math paper though! :D TEEHEEXSZ. Finally did something after resting for so long ;)